I remember how much I wanted you Craved you like a meal only grandma could cook Longed for you Like stewed peas with spinners Served over white rice that tastes nicer Than any restaurant could dare make The sweetness of the meat Contrasting the salty of the marrow….
In hindsight I know You didn’t deserve me. But I feel I deserved you– Every bit of joy, But more times than no I feel I deserved every bit of pain;
You spend so much time in silence That it scares you Like the dark– You try to fill it with words and song Clicks and tics, Anything That will drown it out Like running through the house Turning on all the lights
When I asked you to let me go I didn’t know it would be that easy– Now, After all that Now, After I fought back Hard Against you
Today I force myself to walk away To let go the last strands of cord Keeping your boat at this port
Chisel away Take from me All the excess Jettison As from a speeding ship That which is holding me back
Now that the bleeding has eased And the knives have been sheathed We may heal You and me Us