I remember how much I wanted you Craved you like a meal only grandma could cook Longed for you Like stewed peas with spinners Served over white rice that tastes nicer Than any restaurant could dare make The sweetness of the meat Contrasting the salty of the marrow….
In hindsight I know You didn’t deserve me. But I feel I deserved you– Every bit of joy, But more times than no I feel I deserved every bit of pain;
Today I force myself to walk away To let go the last strands of cord Keeping your boat at this port
I don’t need you To be soft Just strong enough To tell me
They will call you Impossible When they don’t understand; They will label your Unique ‘Weird’ ‘Abnormal’ And ‘unable to occur’, Even as you stand before them Your breathing existence Proving them wrong Challenging their quo Changing the status of their world And bending their rules to breaking They will deny your possibility
Write yourself a song An ode With symphonic crashes Vibrant trumpets And wailing stringed instruments
Like a recovering amnesiac I get vivid flashbacks: Triggers Like a shot to the head I feel: Like a survivor In a burn unit That much more hesitant To light fires