I remember

I remember how much I wanted you
Craved you like a meal only grandma could cook
Longed for you
Like stewed peas with spinners
Served over white rice that tastes nicer
Than any restaurant could dare make
The sweetness of the meat
Contrasting the salty of the marrow….

Hindsight

In hindsight I know

You didn’t deserve me.

But I feel I deserved you–

Every bit of joy,

But more times than no

I feel I deserved every bit of pain;

Today I let go

Today
I force myself to walk away
To let go the last strands of cord
Keeping your boat at this port

Not So Hard

I don’t need you
To be soft
Just strong enough
To tell me

Can

They will call you Impossible
When they don’t understand;

They will label your Unique

‘Weird’

‘Abnormal’

And ‘unable to occur’,

Even as you stand before them
Your breathing existence
Proving them wrong
Challenging their quo
Changing the status of their world
And bending their rules to breaking
They will deny your possibility

Write a song

Write yourself a song

An ode

With symphonic crashes

Vibrant trumpets

And wailing stringed instruments

Trauma Unit

Like a recovering amnesiac
I get vivid flashbacks:

Triggers
Like a shot to the head

I feel:

Like a survivor
In a burn unit
That much more hesitant
To light fires